11 June 2019

1 June 2019

😱 I'm going to puke but hey, the semester is over!

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My assignment partner and I have just submitted our final assignment due for the semester and I'm still having a hard time to accept the fact that WE ARE FINALLY FREE. I hadn't had a good break or much time for myself in so long that I've forgotten how to even chill and relax. Even while I was taking my time binge-watching on Netflix all afternoon today, there was still this annoying nagging voice telling me that I have work waiting for me when I didn't. I guess it takes some time to let the "Last Week Adrenaline" rush to die down a little before I can just laze around and actually enjoy my break.

And talking about breaks, here is the best part about it. It's three freaking months long because the next upcoming semester starts in September which means THIS GIRL CAN REALLY REALLY REST UP. I can finally do all the things I've been putting on hold just so that I could focus on acing my classes this semester and come out in one piece... and let's not forget, staying sane too. Because let me tell you, IT WAS TOUGH.

When people tell you Master's is hard, they honestly weren't joking. I appreciate that they don't sugarcoat their words but I still wish I was more prepared for this semester. But who am I kidding, that's what I've been telling myself every semester since foundation year but seriously though, you will never be truly prepared. You just need to have some grit, a good strong gut, awesome support group, time your procrastination hours and never ever forget that you can break down and have a good cry when things get too overwhelming. I had many of those this semester but I had so much support from my parents and mum's ulam keeping me healthy, my super fun classmates and kind words from Rino that I could finally even be here. I thought I couldn't get through it but I'm so glad that I kept trying anyway.

I haven't really thought about what I will be doing this break but I do know that I don't want to slack and sleep away through the precious three months that I have. I mean, let's admit this together, you will never have a break this long in your life ever again, especially once you've left the studying life for good and embrace the adulting life. I want to start drawing and sketching like how I used to, reading books all day, playing with my cat Dessi till I wear myself out, learning to make a new dish in the kitchen without ruining dinner for the entire family and actually head outside in the garden because I haven't done that at all since we moved in to our new home. I can't wait to be human. That's all that I'm saying.

Oh, and since we were on the topic of books, I have two in particular that I would love to finish. They're both classic literature novels (no surprise there) and I really want to tick them off my TBR list just so that I can brag and say "I'VE READ TWO BOOKS SO FAR THIS YEAR". I used to read so much back then, easily finished a book in two days but I rarely have time to even hold one let alone read a couple of lines. But I got time now so I'll take it slow and enjoy what I have. 

I've recently watched this interesting YouTube video (can't remember what's it called but I'll get back on this ASAP) on how to read books with limited time. You basically just need to read a book or listen to an audiobook for 10 minutes a day and in a year, you can finish 10-50 books easy. It's an amazing concept that starts with something simple as sparing 10 minutes of any time of the day you can spare to read. I like that and honestly, once you can cover those teeny 10 mins, you can expand it longer as you read. Start small and it gets easier to do.

I also got new spectacles from a few weeks ago. It's totally not my typical style I usually go for. I've never tried any other designs other than the typical rectangular frames ones and I've been getting so many kind compliments about how I look. What do you guys think?

Okay, glasses aside, I think I've done this blog a huge favour by posting a super awesome update from the one and only. I want to keep writing in here throughout my break for as often as I can. Out of the many things that I missed during the semester was blogging. People weren't kidding when they said blogging makes you feel better because it does. Okay, that's enough for now, thank you for readingggg!

1 May 2019

πŸ™…Unraveling Week 9 of Master's Degree

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Where do I even begin? I mean, I owe it to this blog and to whoever who is kind enough to drop by and check if I'm still human or half-way to becoming a corpse. I am so sorry for not posting that many updates as I wanted.

I've been unbelievingly busy and it has gotten to the point that I'm mostly working in front of my laptop during every waking hour I have. I think the one day I actually have all to myself are on Fridays and that's about it.

Life, eh?

Anyways, just as I've mentioned earlier, it is now Week 10 in the semester and many of the assignments deadlines are dangerously close. I have to think twice or a gazillion times if I want to procrastinate and try my luck that it won't hit me hard on the face later. Trust me, as a student, you have to schedule everything even time for procrastination so you know how much time you have left (but usually you don't).

Last week was a little bit stressful, to be honest. Our bedroom air-cond sort of decided she had enough serving us so she broke down for a couple of days. I'm telling you if you don't have either an aircond or a fan to ventilate your room, you-will-die. Or close to one because for almost 3 days straight, I had about just 1-2 hours of sleep that didn't involve me waking up in a sweat and contemplating to sleep outside on the sofa where it's 2x hotter. But now, she's all patched up and behaving well. This leaves me a happier, not-so-much sleep deprived me in the mornings.

If we travel even further into last week, I was also fortunate enough to watch Endgame right after class was over. It was AMAZING and I hope so much that I can watch it again. I watched it on the first day the movie was out and the crowd was so supportive. Again, the movie??? 100/10. 10 stars out of five.

I've also bought a new book that I hope to read till the end. It was an impulse purchase sort of thing but I'm not regretting having it in my possession.

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This is a rather poor update of my life but I'm more than glad I can fill in you guys with what's going on lately. I'll update again soon!

xxx
 


31 March 2019

πŸ’ƒ[Graduation Day At Last] - Vice Counselor Award (ANC) UiTM Shah Alam

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I HAVE FINALLY GRADUATED FROM DEGREE!

Give me every word for "overjoyed", "relieved" and "ecstatic" from the dictionary and neither of them can truly describe how I felt about my degree graduation earlier this week. I wish I can just shout out loud about how unreal everything felt (and still is, to be honest) but all I can say are my many "thank yous" to everybody who helped me to get to where I am now.

Just look at that happy chubby face!

Le classmatesss!


Thanks to God, my parents, lecturers, friends and myself, 3 years of nothing but hard work are paid off and I received the awesome Vice Counselor Award (ANC) during the 8th graduation session this Wednesday. Since it's been almost a year since I was done with my degree and applied for masters, I initially thought I wouldn't be up for celebrating something in the past. Still, I was proved wrong. Nothing can beat the feeling of seeing my parents' and lecturers' faces when I got up that stage and claimed my award.

Thank youuuu so much from the very bottom of my heart to those kind souls who were there for me! I only hope for the very best for you in return.

:)

8 February 2019

🀳 Taking a Break from Twidder!

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Hi everybody! 

Not long after I published my most recent post, How I'm Coping with Exam Results (FYI Not So Well), I was scrolling through my Twitter and Instagram non-stop, trying to fill up the empty and bored void inside of me when I realised something.

First of all, Twitter does not make things unbearable nor does it ruin people's lives. Just to set some things straight, I'll say this: it's an amazing platform to connect with my friends, getting news at a super ridiculous speed and sharing funny tweets.

But on another side of the spectrum, we have the negative and never-ending debates people engage in and can't seem to stop going on about them and dominating my feed. Sometimes, I can't help but get swallowed up in the whole drama that I have no care for. It's a nerve-racking experience. Just this week alone, we have stuff about Syed Saddiq, Emma Maembong, etc. Like... I didn't sign up to participate in all of this. I just wanted to know what my friends are doing and spam them with cats and bunny pictures!!!
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I basically snapped on that day and I finally decided that I needed a break from the app, even just for a while. It's not just about this week's drama... but Twitter netizens have of late been rather unbearable and toxic for me to get along with.

Of course, there's also the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm a Twitter addict. I don't like to admit it and it's even worse when I can verify this fact myself. There could be hundreds of things that I could do in a day but scrolling for the 1001th time on Twitter isn't exactly helping me to get things done. The whole "twitter getaway escape" was to help me get my time management on my phone set straight and perhaps, a little break to take my mind off from unnecessary drama. I reached a point where enough is enough and packed my bags to clear my head.
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I stayed away from Twitter for 4 days. I managed to restrain myself from tapping the app open in that period of time with little to no trouble at all. I was expecting more challenges, perhaps several episodes of me breaking down from "Twitter withdrawals" or an epic inner battle with my consciousness to keep me away from achieving my initial objective. However, no such things happened. I'm not going to lie though, I did feel some sense of emptiness at some point of the ordeal, especially when my friends texted me about something that happened on Twidder and I had no idea how to relate to the context. Still, I actually felt at peace and by the end of the fourth day (my birthday), I could stay on Twitter for short period of time to respond to a few wishes and left it again to do other businesses.

I think grabbing this break away from Twitter was a great idea. If I ever feel that things are getting too overwhelming on this social media platform, I know that I'd be okay to just leave it until it has reached to a level that I'm more familiar and comfortable with.

What do you think? Have you ever felt like taking a break too? Tell me your thoughts!
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1 February 2019

🧟‍♀️ How I'm Coping with Exam Results Day (fyi, not so well)

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You know what, this is exactly why I don't ever EVER set new year resolutions or even tell anybody if I have one. For people like me, they're made just to be broken or left to perish before the year even actually begins. In my case, I've left this sparkling new blog of mine abandoned for a good 3 weeks without a peep or sign of life. I NEED TO GET A GRIP. ARGH!

To be really honest with you, I have my reasons (here we go again). Well, primarily just two.

Reason 1: 
I absolutely have zero ideas on what to talk about without sounding cliche, boastful and pompous, or worse, an until bore. I WRITE FOR PERFECTION and inspiration has not blessed me with its presence for that amount of time and thus, I was absent. I swear on my life that when I truly write (fueled by inspiration, motivation, and a brilliant idea) and into something, I do it till my brain cells are fried and smoke comes out of my ears. Yes, exactly.
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Reason 2: 
I have been in utter despair these last few days when a friend of mine told me that our exam results are coming out NEXT WEEK, first thing on Monday. And to make matters even worse than it already is, it will conveniently happen on my BIRTHDAY. Like whyyyyyyy... Now, whenever anybody mentions of my birthday, a chip of my soul gasps in horror and wilts away. I can't think straight, not at least until I know how well I did last semester. Once that unfortunate wretched day has passed, my soul can rest in peace and I can continue to leech more YouTube videos in bed.
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With that explanation, you have your answer from the title of this blog post: no, I'm not coping so well. If you're a close friend of mine then you probably understand why I've been gloomy for a while. I just honestly can't stand long semester breaks. I don't want to make myself sound like I haven't tried being busy because I have, and it didn't last very long. I've read a few books, wrote some pretty TERRIFIC poems, watched all the movies that I wanted (I still haven't found Matilda on the Internet), and binged through dozens of YouTube videos, yet, it didn't feel very fulfilling.

Now that the new semester is a few weeks away, I have just enough strength to slowly but steadily build momentum in reading journal articles related to my course, pick up my Mandarin learning app, and basically doing stuff that is bringing my mind back to life. I CAN FEEL THE OLD WANI COMING BACK.

Anyways, that's about it for today's update! I hope to write more once I find an interesting topic to mull over and write. I have the drive to write but not the topic Hope you liked this one!

In the meantime, do me a favour and remember me in your prayers. HAHA
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P.S.
Pssssst! I'm just going to put this out here. I'm open to writing collaborations with other bloggers if interested. I think with the amount of time I have (there's plenty on my lap right now), I would loveeee to contribute my writing and work together. Email me here to chat about it: syazwanizzati@gmail.com

9 January 2019

🀭 My Current Guilty Obsessions

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Before we even start with today's post (that was due two days ago but you didn't know that.... okay now well you do), let me just be very frank with you: I'm the most boring person to be around. What I mean is, just a year ago, I didn't have interests or hobbies that could be the spark factor in a conversation.

Not until just very recently, I started watching drama series and catching up on recent movies, and picking up new hobbies (they sort of died when I started my master's degree). For today, I'll be listing out my current obsessions that I'm in love with. Spot any that you can relate!


1. Poetry writing
YES, this is something super brand new that I sometimes catch myself doing in my spare time. Honestly, I've never been the sort of person to take a few moments to appreciate beautiful words and feel emotions on a deeper level. It's funny how that completely changed over the past 1-2 years and now I'm even collecting as many poetry books I can get my hands on!

This is an excerpt of one of my poems:


I used to start writing a few poems just out of practice for a couple of contests I wanted to participate in. That's why in my draft, each poem is entitled with a "P" (meaning practice) followed by a sequence number. Now, I write poems out of interest especially after listening to songs that click with me or even craft short verses for my friends. 


2. Epic Seven (Game)


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Honestly, if I'm in somebody else's shoes and take one good look at myself right now, I won't be convinced that I'm much of a gamer. It's not that far from the truth too because I don't have enough patience one needs to play any games through till the end. I gave up with Sims Play after failing to get my Sims avatar pregnant for 3 weeks. Not to forget that I'm pretty crappy at gaming too! I've accepted that fact a long, long time ago.

Late last year, I was introduced to a new mobile game called Epic Seven and since then, I've been hooked to it every other day. It's really addictive and for someone who has the attention span of a fly, it's interesting and challenging enough to keep me going. Ironically, I haven't passed Level 10 yet and it's been 2-3 months since I started playing this game. UGH!


3. YouTube Channels & Videos
Since I'm on my long (SUPER TERRIBLY LONG) semester holiday, I have all the time in the world to binge through YouTube videos I've been wanting to catch up on. Here are just some of the few favourites in my subscription list:
  • Lucy Moon
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I absolutely LOVE Lucy's laidback and personal chats with her viewers. She talks from everyday issues to relationships, makeup, girl-to-girl advises and shares frequent vlogs. And I just like her accent (that's pretty much the whole reason really but she's cool too!).

  • Shazz Zainuddin
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When it comes to this particular YouTuber, I don't even know where to begin. HAHA. She's super quirky and funny in all of her videos. Her personality is really likeable and honestly, she can light up your day anytime.
  • The Fitness Marshall
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I'm at my laziest when it comes to dragging myself out of the house or let alone my own room. However, I'm moderately conscious of my health and well-being (note: sometimes) and so I'm continuously finding ways to motivate myself to still exercise even if it means not having to go outside. I've been following this YouTube channel for 2-3 years and let me tell you, it is FUN. You should seriously check them out whenever you want to work out from home!

4. Drama Series
  • How I Met Your Mother (HIMYM)
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I'm currently in Season 4 and I'm loving all the drama and humour that make this whole series AWESOME. I just wish I knew about HIMYM sooner. AHFKLAJFLDAJLK!!!!

  • Game of Thrones (GOT)
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I'm down to the second season and I have two episodes left to go. I've been postponing my GOT Season 2 "journey" experience because I just CAN'T bring myself to watch what will happen next. I'm emotionally attached to my characters. I AM WEAK. T_T
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Alright, so that's basically all that I have time for in today's post. 

What's YOUR current obsession? Share them in the comment box below!

4 January 2019

πŸš—πŸŒ«I Have Moved (Again)

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Oh no, she has done it again!

Okay, before anybody freaks out and call the authorities to have me arrested for moving so often, I can justify why I did what I did. Or at least I can try.

To be completely honest with you, I only moved to Wordpress (my previous blog) because my actual blog on Blogger had problems with the coding when I was messing around with it. To make this story short, I don't have access to it. Besides, I've always loved Blogger's simple writing platform which is why this will most probably be my final blog resting place (wow).

Anywhoooooo... Like I've promised, I'm going to update this blog twice a week to really keep this blog up and running as it used to be.

New blog posts on: Mondays & Fridays

In the meantime, don't forget to follow me and drop your own blog link below! I loveeee to read blog posts so I welcome yours!

3 January 2018

🀫Too Much Information Tag

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Ohmygosh, she's going to say it!

Hello everyone! Today, I thought it'd be a good idea if I dedicate one post on a rather popular topic — TMI or Too Much Information Tag. I'm inspired to make one by the lovely Atheera Dayana who also uploaded an interesting post last year.



I'm not sure what to expect to be honest although I've briefly scanned through the questions a while back. Having a rather faulty memory doesn't help either so I only have the adequate idea of what to answer. But I've heard that that's the best part about any tag at all.

Okay, let's get started!



  • What are you currently wearing?
My favourite T-shirt that I got from the Hat Run 2017 marathon and comfy grey trousers.

  • Have you ever been in love?
Yessss.

  • Have you ever had a terrible breakup?
I've never been in an intimate relationship before so it's a definite solid 'no'. 

  • How old are you?
Young, fabulous, and sometimes a little clumsy. That's all you need to know, honey.

  • How tall are you?
I'm a proud 1.59 m. Let a girl appreciate her height for once. I've never been this tall before. Haha!

  • How much do you weigh?
I consider myself quite overweight (fat ratio wise I mean), around 52-53kg. Give or take.

  • Do you have any piercings?
I used to wear earrings but they always get caught on my inner shawl (is that what we call them in English? lol). And no, it wasn't pretty when things went downhill from there. But I miss wearing them and having them blinking at me when I wore them.

  • Do you have any tattoos?
When I was little, we thought it was cool to put those super temporary childish fake tattoos that you just have to stick to your skin. It fades over time but it hurts like hell if you scrub it off.

  • What’s your favorite drink?
I always order for either of these — Iced Milo drink, mango juice, or apple juice.

  • What’s your favorite song?
I don't have a particular favourite song but I'm currently in LOVE with all the songs in The Greatest Showman movie soundtrack.

  • What’s your Zodiac sign?
I'm an Aquarius. heheh...

  • How long does it take you to shower?
Honestly, I whizz in the shower. 10 minutes top or even less.

  • What’s favorite show?
I'm not a TV person so I'm rarely glued in front of one, but I occasionally watch The Graham Norton Show or the Big Bang Theory. Who does not love them anyways?

  • What’s your favorite band?
I don't really have a particular favourite.

  • Something you really miss?
My friends from uni! We'll be heading to our internship places and might not see each other for a while. Noooooo....

  • Where do you go when you’re sad?
Somewhere quiet and private where I can look through the problem at hand and sort myself out the best I can.

  • How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
On a school day or days when I'm expected in the morning, I would be up and about 1 hour 30 minutes EXACTLY before I have to head out to wherever I'm needed. I time everything like I'm paranoid that way. Hah!

  • Have you ever been in a physical fight?
I guess joining Taekwondo and Karate don't count, but as a kid in primary school, there were plenty of times where I willingly joined in. I was a tomboy if you haven't guessed that part so I hung out with the boys and we had play fights sometimes.

  • Quality you look for in a partner?
Dependable, patient, and someone who can get along with my 2AM talks.

  • What’s your favorite color?
REDDDD

  • Loud music or soft?
I don't like loud music to be honest. It scares me that I might actually go deaf after having to wear specs for almost 2 decades. That technically means that I'm partially blind since I can't live without them. Haha!

  • Favorite Quote?
Put yourself first. Always.

  • Favorite actor?
Got a crush on Domhnall Gleeson!

  • The reason you joined YouTube?
I was obsessed with Booktubers and reading for so long that I thought I could join in. My channel has been rather quiet for a while and I'm not sure what to upload in there for the time being.

  • Do you have any fears? What they are?
I am absolutely TERRIFIED of being in the dark and standing at great heights. Mostly of the dark because I literally freeze whenever I'm caught in a room with low lights or total darkness.

  • What’s the last thing that made you cry?
This is going to sound so funny but I actually cried over a story online that I was reading just 2 days ago. I cried like a baby from underneath the duvet.

  • Meaning behind your YouTube Name?
It's called Bookworm14Cats and it's not like what you're thinking. I don't have 14 cats at home but I do love the idea.

  • Last time you said you loved someone?
This week to my parentsss.

  • Last book you read?
Hunger from my favourite author Michael Grant. I LOVE THESE BOOKS.

  • The book you’re currently reading?
Moby Dick and Hunger.

  • Last show you watched?
I honestly can't remember. HAHA!

  • Last place you were?
My room for a good couple of hours while the technician fixed our air cond. I was dying of boredom in there.

  • Last sport you played?
Karate trainings.

  • Who’s the last person you talked to?
My sister in the kitchen as I peeled and poked my finger with dead shrimps.

  • Last song you sang?
IDGAF by Dua Lipa. You soooo have to listen to this song.

  • Favorite chat up line?
Gosh, I'm lame. I don't know.

  • Do you have a crush?
Yep, on Domhnall Gleeson. Just without the beard.

  • The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
Club committee. We're working on an ebook project.

  • Favorite food?
I love (and without fail) mee curry, my mum's bubur lambuk and everything else that's magical she makes.

  • Place you want to visit?
I want to visit an art gallery so bad because I've never been to one.

  • What’s the last time you kissed someone?
None. lol.

  • Last time you were insulted?
Can't remember exactly when but it was about my choice in speaking mostly in English.

  • Favorite flavor of sweet?
I don't like sweets actually, but I love chocolate especially Mars bars. Yummm!

  • What instruments do you play??
None, but I would love to learn how to play the piano and violin.

  • Favorite piece of jewelry?
I think jewelry is pretty but I've almost never managed to keep one in one piece or wear one for long.

  • Have you ever used it?
Yes, and it was a pretty ring that was one size too big but I wore it everywhere. 

  • Last time you hung out with anyone?
With three of my favourite people - Luke, Ainal, and Naem.

  • What turns you on?
Cat pics on my instagram and Twitter. Safe to say that they conquer my life.

  • What turns you off?
People who don't respect others and exaggerate situations on social media when it isn't even that big of a deal. People need to chill.

  • Who should answer these questions next? Tag them……
Everyone who reads this post!


I'm waitinggggg. And thank you for reading my post. I really hope that you like it and if you have comments to add, don't hesitate!